Re-born

....she was amazing though to me...she gave me a book with empty pages and told me to write down all my ideas ---this book I still own today. It is filled with ideas ( ideas for websites) that is to empower the masses rather than to make money from the masses. These ideas range from social media platforms to websites that are purely created to fund free education and to fund poverty on a mass scale. My days as a waiter ended on the 6 December 2015...I took a month and traveled to America and Canada for the second time that year( money is good when waitering) I remember when returning how fresh and ready I felt for 2016. It was going to be my year. In October 2015 I already started with offering personal training classes to my neighbors. I never finished my studies on it but it has been part of my existence and I was and still am very good at it. It was a hard life because I charged my clients half of the regular cost...I thought this was only fair because I did not actually have qualifications for being a personal trainer. I could barely cover my rent and food for the month but my quality of life improved...no longer did I have to waste my thoughts and energy on making someone else successful. Most of my time I spent focusing on making my charity sustainable and the rest of the time I did odd jobs for cash in hand and personal training to pay my way. From January 2016 till June 2016 I was campaigning to launch my charity in Khayelitsha( Cape Town's largest informal settlement). The stress and constant thought that I was going to fail was present the entire time....Until that fateful day June 3rd 2016. I wrote about this day in my previous blogs but what I did not know at the time that that was the day that I was re-born....

My charity in Cape Town was a failure

Doing it for 4 and a half years......In 2012(end of the age of Pisces according to the Mayan calender) I started my charity called "the imilli Project" .....pronounced eye-miley....milli is short for million and i stands for internet ..... use the Internet to connect with millions to raise awareness and potentially empower millions via the Internet. I struggled for 4 years to set it up but only managed to empower 5 boys with ice hockey training...3 of them got their provincial colors but I never managed to set up the rest of my charity which was mainly FREE computer classes set up in townships. I tried but failed time and time again...i think I mentioned this( I did fall on my head..soooo I forget things:) ) .....my point that I was trying to make in the past 2 posts is that my charitable efforts started evolving from 2012 .....most of my energy was put into waitering and with that comes a lot of late nights and don't forget a lot of partying....We finished at 1am and still wide awake at that time ....it came with the territory The problem with that was is that it affected my charitable efforts because although I wanted to make it happen ...inconsistency played a huge roll....it eventually subsided(tired of doing the same thing every night) but it was tough to work till 1am then get up at 6 or 7 to hit the streets and promote my charity. This started in 2014 ....my party days where over and I was getting over waiting as well that I really started focusing more on getting out of it....So my energy and mind and free time was focused on my charity but as much as I focused on it....going to work at 5pm everyday for 6 days a week was tiresome. In 2012 I started dating this girl who came to Societi on a regular basis...it was a good relationship...I loved this girl but unfortunately she did not love herself at the time and it affected our relationship

A quick history

Not long after that, I broke up with the girl and finally I felt free again...although it was an amazing experience, I told myself that I would never put myself or a future partner in a position like that especially if there are kids involved. The next 7 months were some of the best memories of my life...I remained in my home town and started working on a farm for R700($50) a week..Tobi and Adel where my new found friends and we lived a life of awesomeness. We where inseparable. They called us the tripod. They where a couple and I was the lone wolf but together we were amazing...we worked on this unethical guys farm, fixing things up and creating a paintball business...It was days of living in our shorts, no shirt, no shoes(too hot) and spending our off time next to the river...I loved those days...I had nothing but I had everything...but our time together was cut short when the employer decided to fire all of us on a Sunday...that same day Tobi's parents came to pick them up...I remember crying like a baby. I started looking for work again and found a job in Tulbagh. A manager for a restaurant. Restaurant work was my bread and butter in London and I was and still am damn good at it. After 8 months I was "stolen" by another dude that had a pizza place and asked me to go help him open one up in Stellenbosch. These dudes made me work 13-hour shifts 7 days a week...just too much and after months of abuse and negative energy, I finally got out of there and moved to Cape Town...Best move possible --it was here when I got a job at a restaurant (societi Bistro) and finally found my groove again. I gained so much weight in this "limbo" time but lost it all when I started waitering again. As mentioned I love that job...loved it so much that I ended up .....

the start of ideas

..... just one but multiple persons at a time. I was very cocky at the time, thinking that soon enough I will be my own boss, running my own business. This was a mindset that came from a first world country. Soon I came up with the concept "S.A extreme tours". A 2 week high octane, travel experience through South Africa, where my clients would be bungy jumping, shark diving, sky diving and many many more adventures. I studied to become a tour guide(hard) and in 6 months I achieved my goal but classic apartheid Karma came to bite me in the arse. Because of the color of my skin I could not get a loan to start my business. Thats right! White skin = no loan . I needed a black partner but because I had just returned from the U.K, I had no immediate black friends that I could ask and trust to go into business with. My dark years kicked in at 29/30....no job and I started dating a girl with 2 kids..I became the baby sitter and she worked at spur to bring in money. It was the toughest time of my life but there was light in those dark days. The Internet always fascinated me and when the kids went off to school, I did online courses to empower myself with knowledge. I learned how it all worked...how google made money and how social media was revolutionary..it was all intriguing and inspiring....soon I started learning CSS and HTML and wanted to build my own website.. I lived in the same town as my mom and I would run to her almost every day and tell her what I learned....then one day my mom gave me an idea to think about...with my new found passion and my moms concept I came up with an insane idea called spacebooks(first name imillibook)...This Idea to this day is still on my back burner and one day I will build it and it will empower thousands of people.

The origins of charity

.......that does not question this out loud? There are other ways...my life has been a learning journey and the more I study spirituality the more I come to realize that I have been trained right up to this moment...its a huuuge mindfuck(pardon the french) when I realize why I have been chosen to take this path? My earliest thoughts of trying to help people span back about 10 years ago...I was 27, working as a car rental agent..I had just returned from the U.K(after almost 10 years there) I was driving and got to a traffic intersection. There where tons of people standing on the corner putting their hand out for work(mostly trade workers, a common practice in S.A)..I would see them daily standing there...Sometimes there would be more than a hundred people....This vision saddened me...especially since I have been living in a first world country for so long. In the streets of London it was a different story..besides the fact that most homeless where white, they also had it cushy...they could go on the doll(earn 80 pounds a week) and there are so many out reach programs...I also found that many where just freaking lazy and chose to live that way. In S.A(Africa) it is different....huge numbers of people are desperate to work...I remember in-visioning me picking all of them up with a huge truck, taking them to a piece of land and i would imagine all of them building houses(shortage in S.A) but there would be structure to it.....I imagined having 10 experienced builders on the job...each builder would micro manage each government house being built...By doing so 10 houses would go up at the same time, tackling our problem of house shortages in S.A. I in-visioned charities coming in on a daily basis feeding them breakfast and lunch as they worked away on these plots...that was my first thought for helping those in need....from there it started growing and growing and I would come up with ideas to help not......

All religions have truth in them

...Buddhist monks (enlightened beings) are known to go into meditation for years even decades...is it so bad to give it thought that in Jesus's travels to the east that he studied Hinduism and Buddhism?!? Does this not give it more of a tangible story? The Bible tells us about his birth ( just like Horus) then they jump 30 years( just like Horus)? We know as human beings "practice makes perfect" Jesus devoted his life to his practice...he loved to travel, he loved to be connected to God and if you study Alchemy (Gods science), Gnostic(knowledge of self), Sanatana Dharma(means "the eternal Path"- earliest form of Hinduism) and Buddhism you will know that meditation was and is the shortest route. I don't want to take anything away from Christianity because there are millions that believe that the practice is the way to salvation and it is if you are devoted to Jesus and God but we are all not built the same... Every single person is unique but it has been forced upon us to obey the schooling, uni and college system...I am living proof that the schooling system failed me.. I finished my school with a C-....making me think that I am stupid to everyone else...I am not stupid, I just cant learn things like your average person has been forced too. How many billions of children have gone through the same trauma? We are being set up for failure and we have not even started living.... When you look at all these systems and rules and regulations...soon you realize that it just works for a minority, yet the majority live in poverty... Hypothetically speaking...if you were president of the world and you had good intentions, would you not have structures and rules and regulations that benefited the majority NOT the minority? People will argue well there is not a one world government (yet)....but every single country on this planet is subject to being ruled by a pyramid scheme monitory system...I do not understand that there is not one person in power or has status......

Jesus..The hurtful truth 2

... in the blanks by inserting previous God's life stories.... so how can the bible be honest truth?! We have to question!!! If anything, do you think Jesus would like his legacy to be based on lies!?! NOOOOOOO!!!! He would want us as his followers to find out the truth about Him. They used this incredible, unbelievable, most influential SPIRITUAL being to their advantage and based his origins on religious scriptures over a period of 6000 years....We were conned into believing so much about Jesus. So who was he really? Take away the Dogma and you come to realize that although there are so many lies about his life...there is so much scripture and testimonials that you can find in the Bible and that has been left out of the Bible, that portrays an incredible man! He was so connected to God just like Horus, just like Buddha, just like Krishna...they all existed in different time periods and they all had the same message. That there is a God!!!!!........................ and their teachings show us the way in finding GOD as SPIRITUAL BEINGS, not human beings.. We live in an age where information can no longer be hidden...You know..I have been brought up a Christian all my life and when I think back about how I thought about the Bible...I always saw it as a "fairy tale" and a boring read...especially in the beginning where this person is the son of and the son of and the son of...When I read about miracles it once again did not sound real and also Jesus's Crucifixion..... I mean here you get a dude who can go into the desert for 40 days...no food...no water...I mean that is just amazing. The bible says that he did it through prayer..cool ..amazing... but have you ever tried to pray for 10 min?how difficult is that? what else do you have to say out loud after an hour? ...yet if we look at Tibetans and those that study Buddhism and meditation that 40 days is pretty average.